Lacking Enthusiasm?

There has been very little to say lately. My internship frustrates me. I went on Friday and it took me a few minutes to realize... my mentor was missing! Quel domage! I didn't know what to do so I asked the vet techs and I ended up shadowing the doctor covering for my mentor. I introduced myself and what not but I don't think he's had a person shadow him before because he went on into appointments without telling me! I spend a lot of my time watching vet techs in between appointments so Dr. Dowd usually comes around to warn me when her next appointment arrives. AHHHHH. I didn't want to barge into an appointment! I had 20 minute intervals where I wasn't learning anything. There wasn't anything to do. On the upside however, there's a kitten up for adoption that's SUPER nice. Her name's Anna she's maybe 3 months old and cuddles like no other. 

Hoop wise- also disappointing. I did indeed get a polypro hoop off of hoop mamas about one or two weeks ago. I'm not very sure. It's been very hard to transition from a clunky hoop to a feather light super small one. I can't do half the tricks I used to and now my old hoop is practically useless to me, it's way to heavy to go back to. The thing that's bugging me is that I can't dance for my life. I'm proud of what I can do, but I cannot incorporate everything into a smooth looking dance. 

Also, I've been feeling disconnected. There's nothing to do, then there's a lot that I haven't done that I need to get back onto. I think I'm using this blog as a decoy, I want to stay on the internet and do nothing. I need a personal motivator or a life changing event for insight into what I need to do next. 

Instead of leaving this post so dreadful, I think I'll make a few goals for myself.
1. Finish the last college application

2. Enjoy company